The book i’m tearing into first is Walden by Thoreau because, well, duh. I’m sad to admit i’ve never read it until now. I’m expecting dozen’s of wisdom pearls to be scattered in the pages and i’m excited to see how it relates to my life now. The first chapter feels a little like ranting about how blindly people are living their lives by working too much. (i’m opening my self up to assault for misinterpreting things, go for it) He goes on in a way that leads me to feel like, “ok, henry. i get it.” Then there is this little nugget, he’s talking about how insulated our lives can be and says: “how can he remember his ignorance which his growth requires.” -boom.
that’s all it took to send me in a spiral of thoughts. I’m usually freaked out about how confusing life can get and how i feel so lost and infant in my understanding of things. But i can take comfort in this thought because i know that at least i’m looking for understanding and want more knowledge. There are plenty of people in my life who feel like they know it all. (or if not all, enough) It makes sense to think that those people are the same people who have stayed the same throughout long periods of time and seem to lack those mental growth spurts because they are not looking to learn. I still don’t like admitting that i don’t know it all but i’m into the idea that i’m on my way to learning more of it.